Scrapbook

I turn the pages
One by one
The faces blur together as they pass
And now it's come to this

Photograph
Just one
That once, long ago
Was my favorite
And now it's come to this

Staring at two people
I don't know
Two people
Who no longer exist
And now it's come to this

Trying to live
A life built on memories
But I don't know him
I don't know myself
And now it's come to this

Everything's changed
Nothing is the same
Anymore... My life is
Everything and nothing
And now it's come to this.
-- 7.14.07

He Broke It

I have been worn down
Reduced to living in memories
That only tear more into my soul
I don't want to talk about it
I just want it to go away
And I want him to get out of memories
Into reality

I want to feel like I
Can be myself without him
That my life is not empty without him
I have been worn down
By the battle in my own brain
As every part of me struggles for control
That no one can win
-- 7.7.07

Phone Book

They asked her
And suddenly she realized
The number that two months ago
She knew better than her own
Now she has to think to remember
Think to remember
So she can give it to someone
Someone who doesn't know him at all
Like she does
And suddenly she realized
Things had finally really changed.
-- 7.7.07

Out of Season

You keep looking at me
With those late September eyes
Holding me close as we say our goodbyes
To summertime

We have to let go
Of the time that has passed
And fall through this life that's moving too fast
Into autumn

I must brace myself
For certain cold tragedy
As I find your seasonal warmth is through with me
While winter thaws

Day night hours pass
Slowly by as you and I, we fight
Fight to stay alive and do what's right
This spring

Now a year's gone by
And a summer dawns this time without you
My June skin is something fragile and new
I can't believe what's happening as you rip right through
So easily torn it seems to bleed and bruise
I've become so damaged and I've got no time to lose
But life rolls on...
-- 6.25.07