Puzzle of the Heart

It feels safe to fall to pieces
Though there's no one to catch me
At least I'm done with the game
Till someone puts me back together
And makes me start this all again
Looking good for everyone who's not watching
Keeping the time on a clock only I can hear tick
Spreading the word but nobody's listening
Making a diffrence but no one cares to see
Right now I'm one whole puzzle but not for long
You're all pulling apart the pieces soon they'll be no more of me
I'll sit as a pile in a box in the dark of the closet
Where I belong - all alone
At least being unused doesn't hurt the heart
I won't be taken advantage of again
--8.11.06

Off the Drug

I'm trying to
I'm trying to do anything
To be clean of you

There's nothing good
Coming of this
Only a slow end to life

But I want it
Want to be high
As I am with you

Inhale you
Breathe you in
And choke, but in blis

I don't know why
Why I have to try
To hate the pain

I should just quit you
But I need a fix
And I'm itching to be clean

This drug has twisted
My mind out of control
Into an addiction
-- 8.23.06

Fire in Black and White

What have I got left
But some used-up words and photographs
Capturing a moment
That was over as soon as it began
Somehow I managed to capture
The spontaneous combustion that exploded
And left me burning
But I've got no oxygen, just
Some worn-out papers with meaning in the past
I am ash, blown away in the wind
And forgotten, the dust of a spark
--8.23.06

All That I've Got

How did everything get so 
Twisted up inside
Spun to the ground 
In every lie
You
Told me 

And I believed it for a while 
Listened
To everything you said
That wasn't true
I got lost in your head
Words
Of untruth 

You said you cared about me
But you don't
You said you'd be there for me
But you won't
You said this was all for me
But it's not 
But now your words are 
All that I've got. 
--8.26.06